you can call it the black ages, a dark spell. for others like st. john the mystic it was entitled the “dark night of the soul”, we’re going through one of those right now. where God doesn’t seem to be anywhere. And the theological answers don’t seem to do much at all. not what your pastors promise they will do anyhow. God is everywhere. So, what does that do with this whole idea then? If that is true (and i believe it is), the why does a powerful king struggle with the same thing. I mean, this poet-king has people answer to him, has what he wants and needs at the flick of a finger…a simple word will destroy a city. Yet, David feels powerless. one of his most common phrases that pops up throughout the jewish poems is “lord, how long?” i feel like this now.
we have choices in this. i think the christianity that we have been served has really duped us of the reality of our choices when we travel the misty paths. Elijah, after one of his most victorious recorded encounters hears that Jezebel is after his head on a silver plate, and what does he do…he runs. He tucks tail and gets out of there like a bat out of hell, so to speak. Here is what is interesting…God, doesn’t stop him. God lets Elijah run. Let that sink in. And then after Elijah arrives at the cave of choice, God bakes him a couple cakes and tells him to get some rest. And then after all that, when God should be slamming Elijah for running away and not trusting him, God reminds him through silence that He is there with Him. Wow! Same with the prodigal son, the Father lets the son runaway to a faraway country (that means it was longer than a train ride) and doesn’t say a word about it when he reluctantly returns and isn’t really repentant. God throws the runaway son a party. How is that?! At times, we must run. Sometimes, when we “wait” on God he is waiting on us to run. I am not advocating sin, just a different way to look at running. Sometimes, we are invited to go through crap not because there is some ethereal message waiting for us on the otherside (sometimes there is), but because we can choose to learn something. We can discover. The more i research scripture, the more i find that the idea of rediscovery and being on a journey were ideas i can’t patent myself, they were God’s. Jesus tells us about this abundant life he offers to us, which lying deeply embedded in the language is this idea of life being a constant state of rediscovery. If we see life like this, it may not make the hard times feel good, but it can give us some steam to keep us moving. It can woo us back into a life where we see struggle as making us stronger and that we can gains something from anything if we look deep enough. How deep are you looking?