i’m studying about the Christian mystics of old and sometimes envy there experience. for most of them, it was so much more than some ecstatic dream or vision, it was completely life-altering. I mean, think about this biblically, you have stories of people meeting with God in very tangible ways. Moses sees God. Jacob wrestles with him. Abraham has lunch with him. Isaiah and Ezekiel both get “ruined” by their meetings with God. shouldn’t we want the same? I am in the place where I am cynical of magic show jesus, where we all hold hands and pray “in the name of Jesus” and hope for some kind of divine magic trick that we tend to call miracles. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in miracles, but what I have noticed is that miracles tend to be God led and when He wants to. Obviously, the bleeding woman who grabbed a hold Jesus’ tunic was an exception. And shouldn’t we want to be like her? Or any of others through history who meet God. I want to meet God, I don’t think there is anything wrong with that. I recently had a conversation with a friend of mine who brought up a good point about how God has created us to be the miracle. And when we worship we should be looking around at one another rather than looking up. Something I am still wrestling with. Back to Teresa. Teresa of Avila was a Christian mystic who had an angel visit her and pierced her heart and left her on fire. She encountered heaven on earth. Something we should be living out — heaven on earth. I don’t yet have an answer, maybe there isn’t one. I am tempted to experiment in the ecstatic experience, but to be honest, we can’t usher God into our world and force him to show up in some “mystical” way….and who knows maybe he already has even today and we just haven’t noticed yet…have you?