trying to make sense of what we go through tends to be a natural thing that most people want to do. when the world falls around us, we want to not simply pick up the pieces, we also want to inspect the pieces and know why they fell apart in the first place. our curiosity drives into wonder. we wonder why things didn’t work out and want to make sense of it all. we think making sense of it will somehow bring this holistic peace. which isn’t necessarily true.
deconstruction i think is within us. deconstruction compells us to ask questions we might not otherwise. it forces us into corners we intentionally stay out of. it forces us to deal with the areas we have either been told not to interact with or have out of fear never deconstructed before.
deconstructing the bible, jesus, belief systems, theology and the world around us is perfectly natural to being human. there isn’t anything wrong with deconstruction. we all need to ask the questions we’ve been told we’re not supposed to, not for the sole sake of being defiant, but to learn and unlearn the things we might need divorce ourselves from. it’s not an easy or comfortable process, we might even lose friends and make enemies in the process. but if we never ask questions we either have learned to accept our lot as a victim who allows life to happen or we have been brainwashed to think we don’t need to walk outside of the boundaries to see who and what lies beyond.
if we never walk outside of the fences we’ve constructed for ourselves than we will only grow as large as the space that we have conceived for ourselves. questions are essential because they lead us on, the move us, inspire us and even challenge us to see beyond what we think know. deconstruction is about letting go of the systems of belief, coming to realize that salvation isn’t found in systems. that salvation isn’t found in a belief system, but partial-salvation (which means ‘healing’) might be found in the process from deconstruction to reconstruction.
but what if reconstruction isn’t what we think it is?
the word tends to connote the idea of rebuilding, or piecing things back together. what if reconstruction was revisited from a different lens?
maybe reconstruction can be less about rebuilding our ideas, and more about our actions. more about living out our ideas embedded with compassion. reconstruction tends to be more about putting ideas back together, but what i am proposing deconstructing be a part of a life-long journey. that we hold the art of the question closely and intimately. but that we also see that there is a need for reconstruction. for a putting back together. a time to build and a time to tear down.
but if we can begin to see that reconstruction can be the process that we live out. that our actions define our beliefs. rather than our beliefs (which should always be held loosely) forming us, which seemingly doesn’t work so well. so maybe deconstruction can be ongoing, but reconstruction can be how we choose to live our lives out. for example — we can constantly hold the ethic of love while we question the validity of baptism. and so what frames us isn’t whether we believe in baptism, but that love is constantly reconstructing with us no matter what we might end believing in. Life is a journey, deconstruction and reconstruction can be the lovely companions that trek along with us.