WAITING FOR THE BUS TO ARRIVE

it’s so much easier to just let it run its course. i mean, sometimes fighting it just makes it worse, and even though we know the outcome, at the time giving in seems to be the best answer at the time. although, in the shadows lurks the shadow of that part of our soul we just just gave up and are not fully aware of. mercy, like air — we need it. sometimes church loses all the spiritual resources it claims it has. we get disillusioned by the very things that seem to have it all together. we seem to have stomach pains over taking all the overspiritualized sweets that are bribe their way into our heads, until one day, theology itself fails us and leaves us to trust god and not our thoughts. we becom disillusioned by our own ghosts and our own ideas, that all that is left is either to completely run east of eden or into waiting arms of our Father, who like the father of the prodigal — always waits….how cool is that?

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waiting for the bus.

it’s so much easier to just let it run its course. i mean, sometimes fighting it just makes it worse, and even though we know the outcome, at the time giving in seems to be the best answer at the time. although, in the shadows lurks the shadow of that part of our soul we just just gave up and are not fully aware of. mercy, like air — we need it. sometimes church loses all the spiritual resources it claims it has. we get disillusioned by the very things that seem to have it all together. we seem to have stomach pains over taking all the overspiritualized sweets that are bribe their way into our heads, until one day, theology itself fails us and leaves us to trust god and not our thoughts. we becom disillusioned by our own ghosts and our own ideas, that all that is left is either to completely run east of eden or into waiting arms of our Father, who like the father of the prodigal — always waits….how cool is that?

Fray…

let’s rearrange, i wish you were stranger i could disengage — the fray
it would so much easier if they just left. i mean, how is it they show up like unwanted guests and then find a corner to call home, sometimes for years…and its funny, they would never make it as real estate agents, because, they just don’t want to leave where they land.
thoughts i mean. of either the past or the future or even now. maybe they have found a new place to home, because we give them something to feed on, our worry. And sometime, they come out of nowhere and in the most unexpected place in our lives. Why? Maybe it is an invitation for healing. For confronting whatever it is, a broken relationship, a sorry that needs to be said, a debt that needs to be forgiven, a moment you need to forgive yourself for. Someone once said, forgiveness is a prisoner being set free and then founding out you were the prisoner. It is so true. It is not always a safe place to be, to seek restoration and healing (another word for salvation), but, we must seek healing, we were made to be in relationship with one another. We were made for peace and restoration…I mean at one time, things like war, destruction, ache, and worry weren’t part of the human language. We must remember those times even though we have never been in them (on this side of eternity)..Jesus says “give me everything” I will take care of it all. This is the offer, to drop your backpack of burdens of self-worth and selfishness and give it over and live out your life in wild abandon, afterall, that is what your made for!!!

Alone.

 

a lot of the movies lately have a lot of sex in them. more than anything, the theme of “one night stands” seems very commonplace in many plot lines in today’s cinema life. a traditional storyline will have someone who is lonely meetup with someone else who is lonely and for one night they get to share in their loneliness. to not be alone.

even horror films nowadays have this idea of not wanting to be alone out of  the fear of something bad might transpire. we aren’t meant to be alone. we don’t want to be alone. as much as someone might make themselves and others believe that they are really happy with their current “single life”…deep down when the doors are closed and the eyes eventually shut, we wish we had a soulmate. King Solomon talked about this kind of love in his erotic love poem called Song of Solomon. He knew we weren’t created for loneliness. While they were creating, the Trinity noticed Adam felt alone, this made them unhappy, so they got together and created Eve. They even commented and said that man should not be alone, its not a good thing. So, does that mean, God wasn’t enough. I don’t think so, but that is another time and another blog. We need one another. more than man needs woman or the other way around. we were made to be interconnected people. to depend on each other.

some have grown up with tragic broken pasts where the act of loving someone else or going past the walls they have put up for safety (the safety of others hurting them) will cost them more than just a cup of coffee at Starbucks. These are real issues here. Like soul deep issues. We must be careful to understand and compassionate enough to care that not everyone grew up like we did. we all have different fears and for those with dysfunctional relationships (abusive parents, abusive bf/gf, non-existent will bring a unhealthy dose of fear into these relationships. this is not a dysfunction. i mean because of the fall, we all have trust issues, sure they look different for each person, but we do…what we must come to realize is that since the Garden, our very birth, we weren’t meant to be a people who are alone. I mean our very birth is depending on someone else to bring us to life. to give us life as most might say. we must realize this and be okay with needing one another. and then be okay enough to let them in…what is that going to look like for you?